What Can I Say I Suck

I did not track my weight loss progress on here like I said I would. If I had I might have pushed a little harder. However, I did manage to lose 40 lbs over the last 8 months. I am a little tired of dieting right now and am trying really hard to just maintain. I need to get back on track soon, but if I can hold off the 40 lbs that is a victory in itself. I obviously have some more to lose, but I'm getting there.

It's Beginning To Look A Lot Like Christmas...

I took some pictures of the kids yesterday in an attempt to make Christmas cards. This is my personal favorite. Guess who made the naughty list?

75% of the shopping is done. I think this is going to be a great Christmas. Shawn and Daniel are at good ages to remember it, so I'm happy. The countdown is on....

Days Like This Should Never Happen

Am I crying because it's raining, or is it raining because I'm crying?

Wiping the Dust Off

Time to get back into blogging. Feels really weird that the last time I did an entry I was still big and fat and waiting on a baby to come. As you all know she did not come when she was supposed to so it was a really LONG wait.
Anyway, I am currently making some changes in my life and so I might as well group all of these things together to make the new me. I'm going to start eating right and working out. I have got to lose this weight. After each child it just kept adding up and adding up and now I'm a big whale. So I'm going to track my progress on my blog. That will probably embarrass the hell out of me, but I deserve it. I let myself get like this. Why should I be afraid of the number on the scale when I can look in the mirror and see it everyday. People aren't dumb, even if I don't give them a number they can guess. One problem I always have is whenever I say I'm fat, people always pull the "you're not fat" bullshit. Why? Why do you want to lie to someone like that. Are you trying to spare their feelings? Well don't! Because you are doing nothing for their health. If I have already admitted to myself that I am fat, the least you can do is admit to me that YES you think I am fat, too. If you don't, I will sit on you.
So offically the diet will start on Wednesday. Mike is doing this with m,e too. We will have Wednesday weigh ins and I'll track the progress on here. The working out began last night. It went well and I hope we don't have to wait to long to see results or I will get frustrated and quit!

On Your Mark....

I think this baby is finally starting to get itself into position for D-day. I feel pressure down yonder now and my stomach has been hurting all day. Just an overall blah feeling though, nothing at all spectacular. Also the babies movements seem to more of a trapped and can't get out sort of feeling, rather than it's usual free floating self. Sorry baby but it's almost time... YOU HAVE TO COME OUT! It just doesn't seem like Baby J appreciates it very much, (s)he is used to hanging out transverse in there.

39 Weeks!

Now some people might get excited about being 39 weeks as that could mean the baby could come any time. No so much for me. I could still have 3 weeks. Nothing new or exciting to share. I'm not even sure if they baby is head down right now but I do know it's not engaged. (s)He is still floating freely wherever it darn well pleases, but prefers the right side. Someone needs to tell baby there is only so far they can go though, sometimes it hurts how far it tries to push over here. That is NOT the exit!

Ready For My Epidural

I've been having cramps since early this morning. No contractions though. I have to bitch about it somewhere. I never had any pain ahead of time with the boys. I just went into labor with them and had a baby. Now I know why so many other woman bitch all the time at the end and try so hard to get the baby out. I can't complain to much though I guess, I know the cramps mean "something". Just less work for me to do when the day comes, but do they have to hurt this much already?