Rethinking the name?

What is wrong with me? Everytime I think I have a name for this baby picked out I love it for a week and then the honeymoon is over. I'm not so sure Jessica is right anymore. Ugh! I'm wondering if nothing will ever feel right to me since I am still so upset over not being able to use the one name in the whole world that I wanted (BIL and his wife used it for their kid after seeing it in Shawn's babybook). I feel like if I can't have Alexis, then nothing will be good enough. And after all of this worrying and back and forthness, I'm sure to have baby boy #3. Naming a boy this time is proving to be just as difficult of a task though. Why can't babies just come with a name already?

Baby Shopping!

So, I got to buy a few things for the baby this weekend. I am totally excited about the baby now. Once I saw how much gender neutral stuff there was at Kohl's I knew I could be ok with not finding out the sex of the baby. It will be such a surprise on delivery day.

Anyway I had tons of fun shopping, of course I wish I had more money to spend, but I think I've got a good start going. My friend Nena is going to send me a bunch of stuff too for the cost of shipping (totally awesome of her). So I'll be set in no time. Just need to buy a carseat and something for baby to sleep in. I haven't decided yet if I should buy a pack n play with a bassinet, or just spend like $40 more and get the crib. I guess that'll depend on where we are living at the time. Please let us have or own place, please let us have our own place. Would love to get a swing too as both of the boys totally loved theirs, but we'll see.

I wanted to take pics to share but my camera batteries are totally dead, so I'll have to share later.

I Wonder

What posseses a five year old to eat a whole chapstick, or an entire bottle of vitamins in one sitting. Doesn't her mother feed her? Then she moved on to the box of airheads in the closet, leaving behind atleast 3 wrappers. (there may be more hiding). But this alone is clearly not enough to keep a five year old entertained, no she then felt the need to shove random coins into Shawn's bubble blowing gun. She painted the walls with shampoo, and pulled random things out of the closet... DVD's the umbrella stroller, 5 pairs of shorts. But the funniest thing is the 3 random pictures of the blank white wall that she took on my digital camera before changing all the settings. Someone tell my why this child was not in school? Why is this child never in school? And why can't her good for nothing, pot smoking, whore of a mother watch her own damn kids!?!
I don't let my kids play in their room ever, is it too much to ask of you to keep your short bus riding kids out of mine.

Belly Pics - What A Huge Difference!

I normally hate sharing belly pics, because I'm fat and loaded with stretch marks, but the difference in these pics is so dramatic I have to share.
18 weeks
21 weeks

The Boys

Here's a cute picture of Shawn and Daniel that I like.

Baby J

Mike and I decided on a girls name for the baby last night Jessica MaryLynn. He is absolutely convinced it's a girl and won't really even consider boys names with me. I do have have a couple in mind just in case though. But it's nice to have something to call the baby, so from now until it's born I'll be calling it baby J, lol. Two of the boys names I like also start with J.
As for baby J (s)he is doing well, this week I have noticed (s)he's gotten into a pretty regular patter for when (s)he's awake or sleeping. And there's been a lot more movement. Still not enough to really feel from the oustside, so I haven't started pestering Mike to put his hand on my belly yet. He'll have weeks and weeks of that to come soon enough anyway. Although I have to admit I don't think it ever really impresses him much. But honestly if he felt the way a baby moves on the inside and carried it around inside of him for many months, he'd feel differently. That's my favorite part of pregnancy, all the big movements and the way it feels.

BBQ - We are nuts!

Last weekend was gorgeous and all Mike and I could thing about was a BBQ. The thought of a big fat barbequed bratwurst made my mouth water and cheeks tremble. So of course we didn't have the money or supplies for a BBQ last weekend and vowed that we'd have one this weekend. Well today it is gorgeously cloudy outside with a high of 46 and a very good chance of rain. Mike is off to the store now to get charcoal. LOL We are so doing this. I am a little upset (ok very) that he only got original potato salad and not the red skin potato salad that I love. He claims they didn't have it, I know how well his eyes work and I'm sure he just didn't see it. So we totally grillin out today, and I don't care what the weather is like. We obviously have to eat it indoors, but so what I dont' like flies in my food anyay.

Halfway Done or Not

Tomorrow I hit 20 weeks the great halfway point of the pregnancy, or is it? Both Shawn and Daniel were fashionably late, so I don't expect this litte sweet pea to be any different. It's going by rather fast for me and all the fun stuff is left. I've started to be able to see movement (and feel occasionally) from the outside. That is my favorite part.

There is still so much left to do though. We don't have anything for baby yet, and haha that even includes names picked out. So I'm pretty glad it's not September yet.